TORRENTIAL RAIN IN MY BRAIN

Running rampant like water spilling from a broken damn

Thoughts tumbling and turning over and over';

unable to focus on any one item, person, song, or thought
it is a carnival of the mind!  Just listen to the noise!
Hear the barker calling drawing your attention to the unsavory sideshows.
I am paralyzed to move; decision-making fraught with dread.
Perhaps I'll visit my safe place where no one else exists but me.
It is peaceful there.  no noise..feeling out of harm's way.
Annd when I return, perhaps creativity will come with me....and
with that there is always focus and a little extra energy!
But, at the moment confusion and distortion are creating a quandry

I am ultimately alone to sort things out. What is perception?
What is real?  Why could I not be born with a "normal" mind?

Intelligence, creativity, the ability to "pull things off"

are wonderful but there is a price.
Copyright 2012 Michele Jajdelski Campbell

ADIEU

My brain cannot wrap itself
around all that has happened
in the last 24 hours.

The decisions I had to make
My psyche shuddering through
quickly and easily – a matter of love

Now, turning over in my mind
ALL  the things we said to each other,.
Consciousness evades me.
I see your face gradually change
 from smiling to  anguish: writhing in pain.Then I realize I’ll not see you again.

Trees appear everywhere and I am in
a forest of verdure and wildflowers
I feel so warm and loved.
I remember our night walks in the rain
Never to take place again.But you  will be with me always.

             Adieu

Copyright March 2012  Michele Jajdelski Campbell

TEXAS INTEGRITY

 Bill came to Texas as part of a career move.  He has consistently taken care of family, and lent a 
 a helping hand doing woodworking, repairs, cooking,  etc, for United Way, school projects,      friends, and various   charities.  A cowboy at heart, he fell in love with this Lone Star State and wishes he'd come sooner.

At ease in cowboy boots and Levis,

working  cattle or  crafting wood;

or donning a suit for the office

he's a humble man of vital good.

His beard once streaked has turned to gray

His jaw's set with a certain look

acknowledging his values are here to stay....

Traditional principles won't be shook.

Warm blue eyes  read a person's face;

and also appreciate blue Texas skies.

He's compassionate but firm in his ways

with a generosity he can’t disguise.

A purist, he won't alter standards,

and rates integrity number one.

He gives his all to every endeavor

But afterward, its family, friends, and fun.

I'm proud to know this upright man

He's one of  few like  no other

who give their time and talents as they can.

Yes, that's my younger Texas brother.

Copyright 10/07/2012  Michele A.J. Campbell

FOR KEN

Ambien and coffee
That's my delight
It makes me exhausted
and I'm awake all night.

Sometimes I get maudlin
and my face salty wet
Mostly I'm paranoid
about the things in my head.

So slip another ambien,
and make a new pot
It's going to be a long one
and that's all I've got.

Michele Jajdelski Campbell
Copyright October 17,2011

RUTHLESS DIVERSION

RUTHLESS DIVERSION

I noted his veiled looks at me

as he srudied me and my jet black mare.

My flowing hair blowing  wild and free,

My cares are for nature , integrity and respect.

TheRuse: He is innocent, respectable, a gentleman.

Aha! but the perception is not true as his timid style does not suit him and his interest is too transparent. 

He is in search of a swift, intimate liaison.

Performance not always being what it seems,

I advanced swiftly and looked deep into his eyes.

He looked into mine but could not hold my gaze.

He knew he could not hold my attention.

For a love exists between me and that black mare. 

She is the main source of my affection.  Unconditional

Love.

But men of his kind deal in deceit and perversion.

They delight in the thrill.  I’ll state his intention:

“Entice me for your pleasure, flatter me for my talents,

For your ruthless div”ersion. 

You could learn a lot from a horse.

copyright June 2011 M.A. Groeneveld Jajdelski Campbell

A Humble Man -

At ease in cowboy boots and Levis
working the cattle or  crafting wood;
putting on his suit forthe office
he's a humble man of basic good.

His beard is streaked with gray and brown
and he sets his jaw that certain way
declaring his code of living life:
that is his individual way.

Those blue eyes can read a person's face;
appreciate a blue Texas sky.
In them you'll see compassion
and a big heart therein lies.

He has a  view of what is right
integrity rated number one.
He's a selfless and a thoughtful man.
His time is for family, friends and fun.

I'm glad to know this man of honor.
I cannot think of any other
who gives more meaning to my life
than Bill: loved and respected brother.

Revised 2/8/2012  copyright Michele Campbell

CACOPHONY

Is there someone much like me:

Synapses electrically askew;

an underdeveloped amygdala and

rapid cycling moods. No balance.

I wonder if those voices I hear

are familiar to another too.

Not commands or suggestions..

a cacophony that my head can't turn off.

Several at once - sometimes I strain

to discern the conversation. It's always inane

but disturbing because I know it involves me.

I'm not on mescaline, LSD or even paranoid...

Perhaps the hippie drugs would clarify the whole thing.

I have lost hope in being understood

When my behavior is erratic, it's because

I'm bipolar.

Did you know this greatly compromises your credibility?