Friday, April 10, 2009

CACOPHONY




Is there someone much like me:


Synapses electrically askew;


an underdeveloped amygdala and

rapid cycling moods. No balance.


I wonder if those voices I hear


are familiar to another too.


Not commands or suggestions..


a cacophony that my head can't turn off.


Several at once - sometimes I strain


to discern the conversation. It's always inane


but disturbing because I know it involves me.


I'm not on mescaline, LSD or even paranoid...


Perhaps the hippie drugs would clarify the whole thing.




I have lost hope in being understood


When my behavior is erratic, it's because


I'm bipolar.


Did you know this greatly compromises your credibility?

ANTICIPATION

I'm shriveled in bitter shadows
awaiting Death's deliverance.

Ah, Morte, hasten and escort me
to that placeof ecstacy where pain no longer exists.

What relief -- my spirit would be exuberant in its liberation.


Micello Copyright December 2008

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IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT ME -- BUT IT IS ABOUT HOW I HANDLE THE CHALLENGE...how i continue to grow, contribute, create and let my mind and talents develop without endangering anyone else. Do I have children --- yes -- 3 biological and they all have symptoms, but they are dealing with some of the symptoms -- very successfully. Forunately none is full scale BDI, Rapid Cycling.